Beyond Kundalini Science: The Journey to Nirvikalpa

When a human being walks too long upon the paths of energy, bliss, awakening, or self-realisation, a strange fatigue arises. In the beginning, there is curiosity — the spark that ignites the journey. Soon it deepens into excitement, even pride: “I have touched something higher.” But after a while, the very things that once felt magical begin to lose their sheen.

Energy rising, energy falling, head pressure, visions, inner sounds, blissful states — all of these start moving in circles, repeating like patterns in a dream. A time comes when the seeker grows tired of them, almost bored, and feels an inner urge to escape beyond their endless play.

That moment of weariness is not an end but a true beginning. For only then does something fresh, spontaneous, and unforced open up. That is the soil where Nirvikalpa begins to grow on its own. Not as a state that can be achieved, not as a medal that can be earned, but as a natural flowering that needs no effort.

The Vedas remind us through a beautiful image: just as a hidden gem buried deep within the forest can be discovered only after one has searched through the entire jungle, so too the highest spiritual knowledge can be attained only after one has first passed through all preceding stages of knowledge and experience.

To seek forced Nirvikalpa is like wanting a PhD before completing graduation. One may dream of it, imagine it, or even fake it for a while — but it will not hold. The real Nirvikalpa dawns only when all holding, all chasing, and all wanting dissolve. It is not another path to walk, but the quiet ending of every path.

This book is simply a collection of such steps and missteps from my own journey. Nothing complete, nothing final — only fragments of experience recorded as they arrived. In fact, many of these pages first took form as blog posts, written in the raw flow of daily reflection. Later, they gathered themselves into this book — not as a manual, but as a living record of search, stumble, and silence.

If you too have walked enough circles, you may hear the echoes of your own story here. And perhaps, beyond these words, you may sense the same silence that patiently waits for every one of us.

Moreover, it is essential for curious readers to know that the long quest toward the reality of expressed consciousness — manifesting through experiences such as Kundalini awakening, self-realisation, the disciplines of Kundalini Yoga, the power of mantras and tantras, the wisdom of the Vedas and Puranas, the diverse insights of the world’s religions, and the wide spectrum of meditation techniques with their varied effects — has been explored in depth in the Kundalini Science: A Spiritual Psychology series (Volumes 1–5).

This book belongs to that current of exploration, carrying forward the same spirit of seeking, questioning, and discovering.